[ When Souji began to pale a little, Yosuke bit his lip and even began to look like he was going to start to panic. But then, even as Souji confirmed what it looked like, that it... wasn't it? But Souji wasn't bolting or yelling at him or anything, so he took a moment to get his composure back a little. ]
U-Uh... um, wh-when those fox fanatics kidnapped us, I had to drink this funky wine. A-And in August, during the Triple Moon, I had like... more than normal fox features. Nine tails and stuff. And... kind of a confidence boost, you could say. You know how worried I get, anxious and stuff... a lot of it has to do with how others see me.
[ His soda was mostly forgotten as he stared at the table, fidgeting with his hands. ]
You know, the Junes kid and stuff. I-I knew I was in denial and deflecting because I'd realized during that time that without that anxiety, I didn't... I didn't care if I thought guys were hot and stuff. It was... I got so caught up in thinking that I didn't need s-something else for people to hate on me for that I-I didn't realize that I had gotten so defensive. Like, if I was comfortable being straight then I shouldn't have been like that, and I shouldn't have treated Kanji like I did. I mean, no one else did, you didn't. So when that phase was over, I just... took some time to really think about it.
A-Also helped that I... kissed a guy and I liked it? [ Such a lame joke, but he wanted to try and lighten the mood at least a little. ] A-And then I went home and without you around since you were back in Tokyo, I just... had a lot to think about. I didn't remember this place though but I think I was workin' toward the same conclusion, just at a much slower pace because when I came back here, it was just... it was just easier to come to terms with.
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Date: 2019-10-16 02:58 am (UTC)U-Uh... um, wh-when those fox fanatics kidnapped us, I had to drink this funky wine. A-And in August, during the Triple Moon, I had like... more than normal fox features. Nine tails and stuff. And... kind of a confidence boost, you could say. You know how worried I get, anxious and stuff... a lot of it has to do with how others see me.
[ His soda was mostly forgotten as he stared at the table, fidgeting with his hands. ]
You know, the Junes kid and stuff. I-I knew I was in denial and deflecting because I'd realized during that time that without that anxiety, I didn't... I didn't care if I thought guys were hot and stuff. It was... I got so caught up in thinking that I didn't need s-something else for people to hate on me for that I-I didn't realize that I had gotten so defensive. Like, if I was comfortable being straight then I shouldn't have been like that, and I shouldn't have treated Kanji like I did. I mean, no one else did, you didn't. So when that phase was over, I just... took some time to really think about it.
A-Also helped that I... kissed a guy and I liked it? [ Such a lame joke, but he wanted to try and lighten the mood at least a little. ] A-And then I went home and without you around since you were back in Tokyo, I just... had a lot to think about. I didn't remember this place though but I think I was workin' toward the same conclusion, just at a much slower pace because when I came back here, it was just... it was just easier to come to terms with.