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fridgeninja) wrote2019-03-20 09:51 pm
fridgeninja) wrote2019-03-20 09:51 pm
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Seta Souji ⬤ Persona 4
residential district ⬤ Middle Lunatia, New Arrival Apartments
moonblessing ⬤ Iris
residential district ⬤ Middle Lunatia, New Arrival Apartments
moonblessing ⬤ Iris
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U-Uh... um, wh-when those fox fanatics kidnapped us, I had to drink this funky wine. A-And in August, during the Triple Moon, I had like... more than normal fox features. Nine tails and stuff. And... kind of a confidence boost, you could say. You know how worried I get, anxious and stuff... a lot of it has to do with how others see me.
[ His soda was mostly forgotten as he stared at the table, fidgeting with his hands. ]
You know, the Junes kid and stuff. I-I knew I was in denial and deflecting because I'd realized during that time that without that anxiety, I didn't... I didn't care if I thought guys were hot and stuff. It was... I got so caught up in thinking that I didn't need s-something else for people to hate on me for that I-I didn't realize that I had gotten so defensive. Like, if I was comfortable being straight then I shouldn't have been like that, and I shouldn't have treated Kanji like I did. I mean, no one else did, you didn't. So when that phase was over, I just... took some time to really think about it.
A-Also helped that I... kissed a guy and I liked it? [ Such a lame joke, but he wanted to try and lighten the mood at least a little. ] A-And then I went home and without you around since you were back in Tokyo, I just... had a lot to think about. I didn't remember this place though but I think I was workin' toward the same conclusion, just at a much slower pace because when I came back here, it was just... it was just easier to come to terms with.
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[He looks down, takes a deep breath, and looks back up.]
I was worried about how people would see me, too. And I was intimidated by Kanji's - his Shadow, and his reputation. So it's not something where you should think you're the only one who got it wrong.
... And when I figured out it didn't matter to me, either, I chickened out of telling you. So you don't have to worry that I'm going to think... anything bad about it.
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[ his words made him pause. It was a little vague, mostly in that Yosuke wasn’t sure if he was hearing right. That Souji had been in a similar boat to him? It was only vague in that he wasn’t sure in what way? That he was... he was the same or just that he had simply felt intimidated by Kanji’s Shadow (And really, it was A Lot at the time no matter how anyone looked at it). ]
Chickened out of telling me what exactly?
[ If this is where he thought it could possibly be going, then it wasn’t like he wouldn’t understand. Yosuke had been a complete dick, after all. He knows. But if it wasn’t, then he wasn’t quite understanding what it was that made him scared to tell him or something. ]
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[He's gone to great lengths to avoid saying it straight out to almost anyone, avoid thinking about it - avoid anything but acting on it, really.]
I like... everyone. It doesn't matter if they're a girl or a boy, if they're - interesting, then I just... I like them.
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[ That made him blush a little. That wasn’t what he expecting out of this conversation but it was also... kind of nice to hear nonetheless. He did look guilty though. It didn’t take a genius to figure out why, he couldn’t be upset about it even if he wanted to be. ]
It’s... It’s not like you had any reason to tell me, partner. I was a jerk about that stuff.
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Let's just both be glad we've learned better.
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[ he bumped his soda can with souji's lightly. ]
So, yeah, that's basically what I wanted to tell you. Also I just missed you and wanted to hang out.
[ it hadn't been that long on this side, but back home, he didn't get to see his best friend as often as he'd like. ]